When do I hate being freelance?
When I can never turn down jobs, no matter how shitty, because I get stuck in the mentality of “I can’t turn down any work or I’ll die”.
When I end up grossly overworked because of that mentality.
When I want to bite the head off of anyone or anything that even comes close to suggesting that I sit around eating bonbons all day instead of working a REAL JOB like they do.
When one client takes gross advantage of me, and makes me paranoid that they’re all out to take me for everything I’m worth.
When I’m dealing with a male client, and I’m suddenly hypersensitive to whether or not I sound tough enough or savvy enough.
When I can’t ever feel free, because my only choices are to work, or feel guilty for not working.
When a client cites the contract saying, “you knew it was only this much money when you signed” after they’ve asked you do a bunch more work you weren’t expecting.
When I realize that there’s no one to stick up for me except me. Because I have no boss, and no lawyer, and I’m my first and only line of defense.
When sticking up for myself makes me feel like a bitch.
When I feel guilty for feeling like a bitch, because I’m not supposed to fall prey to that whole “men are bosses, women are bitches” thing, because I want to be a better feminist than that.